Sunday, September 21, 2014

Why? Why not a son?

I am trying to keep it together.

I am trying really hard to not ask God why.

Why is it taking it so long?

Why is he so perfect yet no one os going for him? Did you know the majority of children waiting in china, are BOYS?

He may not be the fastest.
He may not be the cutest.
He may not be the teachers pet. 
He may not have the most vibrant personality.
He may not have had the opportunities that most children have.

But I do know he is full of compassion. My 4 yeAr old had a PICC line while he away here. My 6 year old tripped over it. This little boy.... 

Yes that one... Up there. He carried my sons PICC line back to me. Ever so carefully with my son beside him. Careful to never pull on it.

No parent ever taught him that. 
He is naturally a compassionate and kind child.

Typically... Children come out of orphanages with some hoarding food issues... Low tone issues... Why??? Because they have never been given a chance.

If I could bring home 3... Right now. I would do it.

But I believe he is has a family who will adopt him... Much sooner than we could. 

Please please share this! Where are the 50 people who PMed me while he was here?
He is still waiting.
He is still going to sleep alone every night.
Dreaming of a family.
A family he begged for.

Saturday, September 13, 2014

~Vegetable Soup~

My favorite time to cook and bake is in the Fall.
After busting, my crock pot yet saving my soup.. I was asked to share my recipe. This is my own recipe as we are a large family... Hubby can't have tomatoe based foods because of reflux... And we like to eat it as left overs.

1 7 pound roast(shredded after cooking 10 hours in crock pot)
6 large potatoes, cubed
1 onion, diced
Lots of carrots and celery, diced
3 cans of diced tomatoes
4 cans of corn
4 cans of green beans
2 cans of peas
2 bags of frozen Lima beans
2 boxes of beef broth
1 small can of tomatoe paste
Salt and pepper to taste

Cook in very large pot until tender.

We shred the roast instead of chunks because we hate chunks of meat. Just a preference! 


Monday, September 8, 2014

Christian Chronicle--- finally!

Back in August 2012, while our daughter Gina was here being hosted from China. A friend from Christian Chronicle came to visit and interview our family. 
We wrote back and forth. Rewrote the article. Things quickly changed. Gina went back to China. We went to Korea twice. Cade came home. Homestudy was started and the list goes on and on.

But at Gods perfect time.. I finally had time to sit and write. But before I could finish my writing... Cade got sick.. Very sick. Our adoption agency called and Surprise! Gina's file is ready and another surprise.. We will approve you for two from China .... And just like that God chose to reveal our daughter Sage.

And then the words came to me... To write this article.

I haven't even seen it yet but friends are messaging me. I am so excited to share our story in this incredible publication.

If you have an extra copy... Please email me I would love to send you a self addressed envelope to receive one for each of my kids.

God bless!

Thursday, August 14, 2014

Here we go....

This is it.

She made the decision go to Harding only last year at about this time.


I am not sure how I can leave her here 13 hours away after 13 years of homeschooling my baby/little girl/daughter/right hand man/ best friend. But it is time for this incredible daughter of mine to spread her wings.

We had a 'interesting' ride here. What should have taken 13 hours.. Took 20 1/2 hours.

We left at5am. 

After about 2 hours, we thought something sounded off with our car. After 6 hours, of babying it up and down West Virginia hills... Unable to talk because we couldn't hear one another... It was getting worse. Found a little shop called Exhust Pro and found out our exhaust had two holes in it? Odd and our Mass Air flow fuse/knob/ Was unplugged. Yes unplugged. The mechanic said someone had to purposely do that. Okay.. No clue how to process that information.

So we were in the middle of no where and got the best pedicures of our lives aka massage/punching of our legs and feet. Not joking.

Once that was fixed and our toes were done... We had bike issues.

And that meant many stops and many views like this.

But we arrived at Harding.... And it is gorgoeus. Absolutely beautiful.

Then we checked into her dorm.... So glad we got to check in early. I can not imagine how crazy this will
Be tomorrow

I am not sure how my departure will look.:( 

She is rooming with her longtime BFF from home. 

Her dorm was awesome! It's all girls dorm. While we were working on her room... Over the intercom it said 'man on all floors.' I loved that.. So if all these girls were running around naked or immodestly. They all had a chance to go put some clothes on. Perk-- of attending a Christian college.

To be continued.... My heart just can't go there yet with how we are feeling. I feel like my entire being for 18 years has been focusing on her... Helping her... Encouraging her.. Loving her... And I feel like it comes down to these last moments. 
I know I will still be doing all these things... But it will be different. 

Saturday, August 9, 2014

You know you shouldn't be hosting an orphan if... don't realize the goal is for the child to find a home. think it will increase your blog traffic. might get more Instagram followers. think it will be easy and fun. aren't prepared to WORK your rearend off before, during and after this child is here. Especially during... think you are blessing the child. The child will bless you. aren't willing to advocate until that child has a home. I repeat.... UNTIL that child has a home.

...reread the point above .. Again. don't realize this child has a future and you aren't equipping him for the future... You are Finding she or he a home.

... This child will most likely be devastated when they leave. has NOTHING to do with you and all about the child. They are not here to give you a jewel in your crown. think it is the 'in' thing to do.

...if this blog makes you mad.

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

Sagelyn Faith

Several people have asked me to share my story of how Sage came to be.

We haven't met her.
We have one photo....and it's 4 years old.
We have 1 page of information on her.
We don't know if she's in a foster home or orphanage.

Through a tragic event in our life... My husband and I both felt we had a daughter born in 2004 and we were to name her Sage. We chose Sagelyn Faith because of 4 special people in our lives my incredible mother in law Diana Lynn, my beloved aunt Lynne( my dads sister) who went to heaven after a battle with cancer, my beautiful sister in law Kimberly Lynn and my sweet cousin Erin Lynne. We chose Faith simply because we just don't know much about our sweet girl other than we have faith she is ours.

Many wanted to know how did we find may not know this but there are over 2,000 children waiting on the shared list. Some with severe needs some with none. She has waited on that list for 4 years. With only one paragraph written about her in 2012... And we got one last month.

So no exciting 'found ya' story... Just a sweet girl who our agency was advocating for. And we just knew. She is a Rogers.

Sunday, August 3, 2014

He left today...

This is a very sweet boy 11 year old boy that my friend hosted. He returned to Chin@ today.
He doesn't have a family....

He is active and likes to try new things.  He is considerate of others and helpful around the house when asked.  He is a very good athlete and loves to do flips, and other tumbling activities.  He loves a bike and rip-stick as well. He has very good hand-eye coordination.  After 4 weeks at the pool, he has learned how to swim and dive!! He is very mechanical and likes to figure out how everything works.  
He is a good eater.  He loves pizza, cheeseburgers, Spanish rice, chips and salsa, French fries, and noodles.  His very favorite thing to eat is Pineapple! He enjoyed all fruits, and vegetables.
Like any other 11 year old boy, he enjoyed electronics.  But always asked before using any and when Was told no, or he had enough time on them, he was always very obedient and put them away. He does not particularly like TV.  He would rather be doing something more active...whether that was video games or outside activities, or puzzles.   
After only one month in the U.S., he spoke some basic English phrases and would use them readily.  
He bonded well with both host mom and dad.  He particularly liked his older brothers.  He had one younger host brother who was 4.  He generally was very kind to him, but was a little annoyed but nothing unusual for his age. His host family believes he could thrive in a family here in America.  He also loved both our cat and dog.  He loved the song  Gangnum Style and would dance to it and always say it to make our 4 year old smile!
He has no known special needs.  He had a perfect check up at the dentist and eye doctor. He has very good personal hygiene.
His file is with Great Wall.  For more information about his file you can contact Jeanne.  Her phone number is 
tel:512.323.9595;3091For more information about my friends experience with him, feel free to contact my friend at or private message my friend on FB at Karen Brackeen Graham.



Wednesday, July 30, 2014


We have debated announcing this... But here goes.

We will be adding on another daughter when we adopt Gina.

Sagelyn Faith

10 years old

She is quiet, shy and adorable!

She is small but this picture is 4 years old and the only one we have at age 6.

She will come home at the same time Gina does, Lord willing.

Sunday, July 27, 2014

Is he yours?

Do you think some orphans cry themselves to sleep at night? 

Do you think they look longingly at other families that are passing by?

Do you ever wonder what an orphan is thinking when they are returned? For not being perfect? For not being good enough? For not looking a certain way?

There is a little boy upstairs in my house right now... He doesn't have a mom or dad committed to him yet.

It's storming,  so I went to check on the kids. This little boy is sleeping soundly. He is laying on his side, snuggling his teddy bear..... I just watched him sleep for a moment. I wondered what was he thinking as he laid his little head down. What was his last thought before dozing off?

He ran into my daughters room earlier and said... Where is daddy? Which he calls my husband..:( he was so worried because he couldn't find him. He seemed to be in a panic.

What will happen when he returns to Chln@ in a few days? Will he be in a panic all alone? Will someone comfort him? Will someone give him a reassuring hug and tell him a family will come?

I am praying like never before for his family to please step forward... I thought it would be 'fun' to step forward and offer respite for this family. I hate this. I am broken hearted. 

He is adorable. Loves his chopsticks. Speaks English and understands it. Sleeps with 3 teddy bears. Loves video games and swimming. Goes to bed easy and sleeps all night.

He would do great in most any family. He loves kids. He is so awesome with our little kids. We have a son with a PICC line, he was so gentle when he saw that. He is very helpful. 

He is 7 years old. If you are interested.. Please contact Gre@t W@ll adoption agency.:)

Friday, July 11, 2014

~My First~

It's hard to believe that my baby girl is 18... The one who made me a mother.
My most favorite job in the world.
Best ever job, if you ask me.

18 years ago today....I gave birth to this pink bundle of joy.
Born with a headful of blonde hair and a bright smile.
Quiet, sweetest, most snuggly baby.
Sat up at 5 1/2 months.
Walked at 10 months.
Always a shining star.

Chloe has always been what you might call the perfect baby...toddler...child...preteen and teenager. She has never caused us to worry about what her main focus was..which was God.

She continues to make us proud with her first decisions as an adult. For her graduation gift, we agreed to pay for a mission trip anywhere she wanted to go. She desperately wanted to go on a medical mission. She was super responsible and found one that an old church friend was in charge of. She made the contacts and will be leaving for the Dominican Republic in a few weeks. She will also be headed back to The City of Children in Ensenda, Mexico in August.

But an even bigger choice...She decided to attend a very conservative christian college where she will major in Nursing and minor in medical missions.

Could a mom want anything else?
I feel truly blessed to have a wonderful, mature, beautiful and responsible daughter.
We love you, Chloe Jade!

Wednesday, July 9, 2014

{One Year Ago}-- Announcement

One year ago .. Today. We met the most precious, shy, scared 11 year old I have ever met. What we thought would be 'simply' a mission trip in our home by hosting an orphan in our home.

We quickly knew this child was ours... Within days. I knew.. I had to bring her home to STAY.

BUT she wasn't available for adoption....


Last week... I told my husband... Something bad is going to happen before we get Gina's file. He asked me what? I said I bet Cade gets sick before her file comes. Satan wants more than anything for us not to adopt again and wants Gina to not have a home.


Yesterday.... The day from hell at the hospital with Cade...out if no where her agency calls me...

We got her referral. Guess who will becoming home in 4-6 months!!! 

You got it!

Gina Joy BingDin

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Grass is always greener....

on the other side.

I think something we should all remember that the grass always MAY appear to be greener on the other side and with social media it sure does appear that way.
We need to remember that these are happy glimpses with a few "in the minute" not so happy glimpses into people lives.

Some people think because I only post the good and he seems to be feeling great in all my pictures. Well that is true I do not post pictures of my son having 15...yes 15 veins collapse or his I.V. infiltrate and cause his hand swell 5 times the size of what it should be.
For example...I posted praise because his bili went down to 2.9....however I haven't posted that it is up 10.9. Or any many other issues we are having.
I personally don't want photos or everyone in my negative business but have no problem having people in my positive business.

Annoying yes..the negative business may be more dramatic and interesting.

But for now..I choose to leave you with smiles and hope for clear blood cultures and healing of his suspected Choloangitis.

God has this...even every little bile duct. He knows when my baby will need a transplant and will work his magnificent plan in ways that will blow my mind.

But until then...we will deal with infections..and Cade's sweet smile.

and another little annoying positive I type this and Cade is playing with his "droppers"....aka medicine syringes. Cade is singing, 
"I love Ga-jok....I love Ga-jok." Music to my ears.
Ga-jok is Korean for family.

A little update: while I was writing this blog. Cades nurse came in.. We have a negative blood culture!! Yay! 2 more and we can go home!